Mommy,I want this bag from KateSpade.

Too much of sleepless nights and smokes of late, leaving behind chronic cough and infection of lungs and throat. Miserable yes, but unavoidable. Test today was good for the amount of knowledge I have within my brain. Clueless about business statistic and test is on coming thursday, screwed. Shopping tomorrow with loy and jav, iphone perhaps. Still considering whether to take sgd56 or sgd98 plan. ultimately an iphone craze. see saw seen evil on facebook but decided to ignore it as much as possible. Dont wish anything to obstruct what im having at this moment.

tsk, nothing much to update. Chao.

Direct definition of Ego.

1.	the “I” or self of any person; a person as thinking, feeling, and willing, and distinguishing itself from the selves of others and from objects of its thought.

2.	Psychoanalysis. the part of the psychic apparatus that experiences and reacts to the outside world and thus mediates between the primitive drives of the id and the demands of the social and physical environment.

3.	egotism; conceit; self-importance: Her ego becomes more unbearable each day.

4.	self-esteem or self-image; feelings: Your criticism wounded his ego.

5.	(often initial capital letter) Philosophy. a. the enduring and conscious element that knows experience. b. Scholasticism. the complete person comprising both body and soul.

6.	Ethnology. a person who serves as the central reference point in the study of organizational and kinship relationships.

To drop or not to drop? I really have no idea. Ultimately, whatever happens, I want to know that I have done the best I could. Thats all.

This is probably another down peak of my fucking life. Hairball no more, relationship went haywire, and daddy lost my mommy hamster. FUCK MY LIFE. Why is all these happening? Sadih giler tau.
I'm completely lost, I dont know what to do. I dont fucking understand whats going on either. Whats wrong with me, or you? Ignorance is bliss, not. I dislike cold war. I dislike how you ignore me. I dislike the fact that you care but refuse to show. WHY?

I get it now. Ego is the cause of it, and only by dropping it will help. So, what now? Im fucking lost and confused and stress and am having a motherfucking god damn torturing headache.

Well, at least now I'm no longer clueless. Alot of thinking to do. Adios.

Thats it. Thats the end of me. I've never been called shameless in my life. This time, being called by someone whom I loved so badly, whom I cared for to date. Thats just awesome.

I dont know whats running on my mind. Truly, I feel like dying. For things I've not done, and for things I did for love. A wake up call, absolutely.

Im screwed completely. Can you imagine it? IN a week I was slapped by my mom and him. How painful it was, no one will ever understand it. If not for my inner will, I will definitely die and leave this fucking world.

FUCK MY LIFE.

I think I just lost a soulmate. Well, I understand but the feeling of loss doesnt feel good. I'm pretty certain it goes both ways. Nonetheless, whatever good for us both, shall be.

Good night world. Thanks for the bloody sudden storm which scared the shit outta me. Bye.

My blood is probably boiling at 100 degrees Celsius. Just when I decided to love my family more, my mom make it a point to change my fucking mind. Y'know what? I have absolutely nothing against anyone in the family. I just can't fucking stand it no more. All the fucking nonsense that comes out from her fucking mouth is just unbearable. Why should I even fucking bother? Since I'm a trash in her heart, I might as well be a true sincere trash than making a fool outta myself.

YES, FUCK MY LIFE.