An awesome, crazy weekend I had with the rabbits. BBQ, horror movies and horror movies and horror movies and vodka and marshmallows and marshmallows and marshmallows and loads of marshmallow. Sunday's world cup, wings and wings and wings and coffee and coffee and coffee but we still all fell asleep during first half and woke up during second. Although I was the only one following WC, I had great company laughing at the falls and all during the match. Evil I know. Cant wait for this coming Saturday for a repetition of last week's. (minus the world cup but plus alot more horror movies!)
Guess what, all of us skipped school and work. BAD BAD BAD
Kbox-ed on Monday and shucks, back to school. ):
Life's just great with friends around. I would say its perfect. Without love affairs bugging me, what more could I ask for? (:
In the process of planning more outings and trips. Gotto work hard and earn more in order to fulfill our fantasies. Just cant wait! oh, and my Melbourne trip too! ♥
xx
Friday, July 9
Good morning sunshine! (oh, not yet.)
Anyway, I just woke up from the longest nap ever. Since 6pm I reckon? I remember last thing I did was to speak to Alvin regarding Sat's program. Next thing I know, My phone was flooded with 11 Msn Pm(s), 12 smses, 6 miss calls and..16 Fb notifications(nah not impt though).
The thing is, I'm not someone who switch my phone to silent. Someh w, it was on silent when I woke up. Haha ok whatever. Since Im wide awake now, I shall blog about... what made me smile for the last 24hrs. (:
First, Spain won. (YAY!) I know it wasnt a brilliant goal but hey, whatever, Germany is out. Thats what im happy about.
Took a nap for <1 hr and woke up for school. Took a bus and reached before 0830hrs. You really dont see that quite often from me, do you?
What happen next shall remain confidential but It was a real touching moment. It was like, at the point of time, I wish he was right in front of me. I could give him a good hug and tell him how much I missed him.
Class almost ended when A and S surprised me outside my class! Cant help but ran out of class. haha A good catch up. LASTLY, While I was smoking with the boys, Terry called. My one yr internship has been altered into 6mth FUCKING months. JUST HOW AWESOME IS THAT?! At the moment I knew I just had the best day of my perhaps many months. I forgot I was heartbroken, and now Im all good. Well at least the person I wanna share with wasnt him.
I cant wait to execute my plans, cant wait for holidays to travel, cant wait for September!
Sweet, just sweet. I still cant stop smiling.
Celebrations in few hours time. Besties coming over for dinner- Steamboat & BBQ. I cant wait.
Anyway, I just woke up from the longest nap ever. Since 6pm I reckon? I remember last thing I did was to speak to Alvin regarding Sat's program. Next thing I know, My phone was flooded with 11 Msn Pm(s), 12 smses, 6 miss calls and..16 Fb notifications(nah not impt though).
The thing is, I'm not someone who switch my phone to silent. Someh w, it was on silent when I woke up. Haha ok whatever. Since Im wide awake now, I shall blog about... what made me smile for the last 24hrs. (:
First, Spain won. (YAY!) I know it wasnt a brilliant goal but hey, whatever, Germany is out. Thats what im happy about.
Took a nap for <1 hr and woke up for school. Took a bus and reached before 0830hrs. You really dont see that quite often from me, do you?
What happen next shall remain confidential but It was a real touching moment. It was like, at the point of time, I wish he was right in front of me. I could give him a good hug and tell him how much I missed him.
Class almost ended when A and S surprised me outside my class! Cant help but ran out of class. haha A good catch up. LASTLY, While I was smoking with the boys, Terry called. My one yr internship has been altered into 6mth FUCKING months. JUST HOW AWESOME IS THAT?! At the moment I knew I just had the best day of my perhaps many months. I forgot I was heartbroken, and now Im all good. Well at least the person I wanna share with wasnt him.
I cant wait to execute my plans, cant wait for holidays to travel, cant wait for September!
Sweet, just sweet. I still cant stop smiling.
Celebrations in few hours time. Besties coming over for dinner- Steamboat & BBQ. I cant wait.
Thursday, July 8
Time flies, its the 2nd last match showing live on channel 5. Honestly, I kinda lost count of the days passing by. It's probably close to 3 weeks since I saw Tigger. Well, the ironic thing is, I miss him but he doesn't feel the same. However, its been good I reckon. Being busy with school, having new friends here and there has somewhat helped in trying to forget a person. Nonetheless, at the end of the day when you end up being home, your mind starts working again, unnecessarily. For instance, Im missing him now.
To be precise, I'm determined but I don't have sufficient aspiration to carry thru. Till I meet someone new, better, I'd probably keep thinking about him all the time. Shucks. How I wish I am less devoted. How I wish I was just playing.
Spain ftw. Good night.
To be precise, I'm determined but I don't have sufficient aspiration to carry thru. Till I meet someone new, better, I'd probably keep thinking about him all the time. Shucks. How I wish I am less devoted. How I wish I was just playing.
Spain ftw. Good night.
Monday, July 5
Its 5th July, Monday. School's gonna start in few hours. However, I just got home from walking along town the whole night and having no fun singing at Kbox. This heavy heart is bringing me down to the lowest. I cant believe this is happening. I cant believe all the thing we've been thru, or rather, I have been thru has become history. You claimed it was beautiful, you claimed you loved. What's going on now? You just leave me to die like this. What did I do? I just dont fucking get it. Yes, I'm tired from trying, but I've yet gotten myself ready to let go. In fact, I never did want to let go. You forced me to. You were so cold towards me, you hardly even bother. What on earth am I supposed to do?
I have completely no mood for school. I'm feeling too awful to even do anything. The last time I felt this was perhaps 7 years back, when my first boyf ditched me for other girl. Is that what its happening?
I could die of misery right now. I miss u so much but you dont even fucking give it a damn. Yes, that is it. You threw me away for the second time. Dumb, just dumb.
='(
I have completely no mood for school. I'm feeling too awful to even do anything. The last time I felt this was perhaps 7 years back, when my first boyf ditched me for other girl. Is that what its happening?
I could die of misery right now. I miss u so much but you dont even fucking give it a damn. Yes, that is it. You threw me away for the second time. Dumb, just dumb.
='(
Sunday, July 4
Its half time for Spain and Paraguay, short update perhaps.
Prior to the match, I finally decided to do myself a slight favor. I kept baby tigger in a storage box, instead of resting it on my bed. Afterall, the sight of it reminds me of him. Hah. Also, gotten rid or anything related in my laptop and mobile phone, except mobile number of cos. See, I'm trying my best.
As for JR, time and time again I let him down. I dont know, but honestly I dont think I'm at fault? Everyone deserve a choice I reckon. I chose not to give it a try. Despite telling him that from the very beginning, he doesnt really seem to get it. Penny for a thought, I wish T rejected me and like I rejected JR. Things would have been much much easier. It wouldn't have caused so much pain.
It's Sunday! Karaoke and mini shopping for school stuffs tomorrow with Jx and L. Monday, school time. I'm not happy about the trainers at all, except for a few and of cos my eye candy, Mr Paul! hehe. Well, he's like Brad Pitt, old but charismatic.
Thats all for tonight, GO SPAIN GO!
Prior to the match, I finally decided to do myself a slight favor. I kept baby tigger in a storage box, instead of resting it on my bed. Afterall, the sight of it reminds me of him. Hah. Also, gotten rid or anything related in my laptop and mobile phone, except mobile number of cos. See, I'm trying my best.
As for JR, time and time again I let him down. I dont know, but honestly I dont think I'm at fault? Everyone deserve a choice I reckon. I chose not to give it a try. Despite telling him that from the very beginning, he doesnt really seem to get it. Penny for a thought, I wish T rejected me and like I rejected JR. Things would have been much much easier. It wouldn't have caused so much pain.
It's Sunday! Karaoke and mini shopping for school stuffs tomorrow with Jx and L. Monday, school time. I'm not happy about the trainers at all, except for a few and of cos my eye candy, Mr Paul! hehe. Well, he's like Brad Pitt, old but charismatic.
Thats all for tonight, GO SPAIN GO!
Saturday, July 3
42 Below, 7 different flavours of Vodka. Awesome hot bods.
JR asked for movie a dinner. Rejected for the 4th time.
Bumped into Rickson while closing bar. Asshole, laughed at me for wearing skirt.
Tipsy, me and shah walked into glass door.
Forbidden City, S came to look for me.
Usual arguments with J. convo ignored, always ended with 'bye'.
L msged, encourages me to give up due to my utter emo-tweets.
Mixed emotions, S cheered me up. Almost cried but tears held back.
I let myself away on the dance floor, I kicked a guy out of angst.
I left the place early to Balestier, wab gathering.
R, E, A, was there. Safe and sound. A lil' heartbroken.
Left for home, shagged.
Lesson learnt: No sleep, no drinks. Angry, dont dance. Last but not least, dont disturb a person's rest.
Outcome: I lost myself. I have never wanted to quit smoking, let alone quitting for someone. Howver, I wanted to quit for u. You dont want me to club, I'll stop. I was willing to change to anything you want me to be. Apparently, even this doesnt work.
Special thanks to S. I hope to see you tomorrow. =)
JR asked for movie a dinner. Rejected for the 4th time.
Bumped into Rickson while closing bar. Asshole, laughed at me for wearing skirt.
Tipsy, me and shah walked into glass door.
Forbidden City, S came to look for me.
Usual arguments with J. convo ignored, always ended with 'bye'.
L msged, encourages me to give up due to my utter emo-tweets.
Mixed emotions, S cheered me up. Almost cried but tears held back.
I let myself away on the dance floor, I kicked a guy out of angst.
I left the place early to Balestier, wab gathering.
R, E, A, was there. Safe and sound. A lil' heartbroken.
Left for home, shagged.
Lesson learnt: No sleep, no drinks. Angry, dont dance. Last but not least, dont disturb a person's rest.
Outcome: I lost myself. I have never wanted to quit smoking, let alone quitting for someone. Howver, I wanted to quit for u. You dont want me to club, I'll stop. I was willing to change to anything you want me to be. Apparently, even this doesnt work.
Special thanks to S. I hope to see you tomorrow. =)
Monday, June 21
World Cup fever.
Nothing fascinating, really. However, it's a good thing it happened now. Due to unplanned term break, I practically live life day by day. Pathetic, totally.
Having said so, time flies, and school's starting really soon. When it does, everything have to be forced back to usual square. Honestly, I'm lost. I have no idea what to expect after 6 months. Where do I wanna do my intern at? What i wanna do? Which department do I wanna be at? Completely no idea. Doomsday, yea.
I dont know what else to blog, nothing else are important for now.
Dreamcatcher, is all i'm yearning for. WHERE TO GET IT?!
Nothing fascinating, really. However, it's a good thing it happened now. Due to unplanned term break, I practically live life day by day. Pathetic, totally.
Having said so, time flies, and school's starting really soon. When it does, everything have to be forced back to usual square. Honestly, I'm lost. I have no idea what to expect after 6 months. Where do I wanna do my intern at? What i wanna do? Which department do I wanna be at? Completely no idea. Doomsday, yea.
I dont know what else to blog, nothing else are important for now.
Dreamcatcher, is all i'm yearning for. WHERE TO GET IT?!
Thursday, June 10
Just like anyone else, I start thinking when I'm walking down the streets alone. I lost myself. Mychelle 1 yr back and Mychelle now is completely two different person. Mychelle used to be full of aspiration, but now, she's living life day by day. Disappointing. Even mom's disappointed in her. Fuck, she needs to be found, be slapped and she needs to wake up, right now.
Damn, but where should I start? ='(
Damn, but where should I start? ='(
Sunday, June 6
Tuesday, June 1
Past one week was crazy. So many things happened, so much learnt. Whether or not its a good thing, at least everyone is sure of what exactly is going on. Complicated it might be, somehow one faithful day it will all be resolved. It's either someone gets someone, or no one gets anyone. Simple.
Tonight especially, was like a game of match it! Where everything was placed on the table, we matched every single details to reveal an ugly conclusion. Disappointed, of cos, but it definitely was a kind of relief, all the assumptions and questions resolved. I felt like let a massive weight off my chest. However, since it's already happened, why brood over it? Let bygones be bygones, and move on. That's life.
Truly, actions always speak louder than words. For the act he did, that showed how much she mean to him. It's not a bad thing. For my part, I'm done with it. Hurt or not, it's already over. I gave my blessings, and hope he finds her, wherever she might be. That definitely was a harsh but noble move. However, i believe many people hope they'd patch things up. They would be so happy. Hence, all the best!
This incident has taught us all a lesson- Cherish your loved ones before its too late. Well, I certainly hope it's not too late for him though.
I've regretted mine, and there is nothing I could do about it. Hence, reckless actions is not wise.
Till then, good night!
Tonight especially, was like a game of match it! Where everything was placed on the table, we matched every single details to reveal an ugly conclusion. Disappointed, of cos, but it definitely was a kind of relief, all the assumptions and questions resolved. I felt like let a massive weight off my chest. However, since it's already happened, why brood over it? Let bygones be bygones, and move on. That's life.
Truly, actions always speak louder than words. For the act he did, that showed how much she mean to him. It's not a bad thing. For my part, I'm done with it. Hurt or not, it's already over. I gave my blessings, and hope he finds her, wherever she might be. That definitely was a harsh but noble move. However, i believe many people hope they'd patch things up. They would be so happy. Hence, all the best!
This incident has taught us all a lesson- Cherish your loved ones before its too late. Well, I certainly hope it's not too late for him though.
I've regretted mine, and there is nothing I could do about it. Hence, reckless actions is not wise.
Till then, good night!
Thursday, May 27
Nothing lasts forever. True that. Something so beautiful has been put to an end. So soon I thought it was still fresh. All the memories seem like just yesterday. Overnight, it has become our history. I certainly miss him like shit, I cant deny. I miss all the time we had, all the vulgars we threw at each other. It was perfect. I never came across someone who's so similar. It's just amazing. I saw future, he agreed. However, I guess the only problem is- We met at the wrong time. Y'know what, I really cant complain much, I'm in no position to do so. At the same time, I hate to give my blessings. Well, I was once caught in a situation like this and I regretted it completely becos I did not take enough time for consideration. I just went in harshly and ended up regretting.
To date, no one ever forgotten the incident. Few nights back, arguing across the table, I realized how much I've hurt him. How much I've brought him down. That, I only realized 4 years later. Pathetic. I started wondering if I'm the cause of him today. He told me, " If not for you, I wouldnt be what I am today." (That is not a positive remark.)
I'm sorry A, I know sorry wont help much but I really am. I'm thankful that despite all that have happened, you still cares alot for me. I appreciate that, totally.
Back to the original issue, I've reach my limits. As much as I really want to wait for you silently. I ought to save some pride and dignity for myself. Take your time to think about what you really want. Although I'm not 100% certain, Im pretty sure you already have the answer. I'd be glad if you could stop denying and tell me straight at my face. It's been miserable.
All the best to you T. You have my blessings.
Till then.
Wednesday, May 26
"Okay dear, but you must know that right from the start, I really really love you and I'm not playing you at all. I really enjoyed all the times and all the fun we had together. No doubt about that at all. I enjoyed every moment with you. But Dear, right now I'm caught in this situation and I need to sort out my thinking and know what I really want. I know a sorry wont help but I really am. Let me sort out my thinking ok? Dear, I miss you. Good night."
This was what he told me last night. When I woke up, his pm was "All said and done, no looking back from now onwards."
Tell me, what does this mean. I'm so lost. ='(
This was what he told me last night. When I woke up, his pm was "All said and done, no looking back from now onwards."
Tell me, what does this mean. I'm so lost. ='(
Friday, May 21
Miserable much. I'm completely lost. I dont know what I should do. Distracting myself away from the picture of him in my mind, I seem to lose myself. Perhaps Serine's right. Compromising from the beginning is important, otherwise it'll never happen. However, if they are happy, I will give my blessings and leave the league. I mean it.
Saturday, May 15
Expect the unexpected.
Recently, things' been rather sneaky. I dont know, just felt so. In my history, anyone hardly came by to remind me about choosing a partner. Just this week, 2 guys whom I dated came along reminding me about it. I mean, why? Random or what, I'm not sure. But certainly I felt some awkwardness when they do so.
Honestly, relationship is minor. Anyone can live without it. I dont see any big deal about having to live in one. I always thought being single is best for me, perhaps. Then again, time after time, I meet more and more people (guys in particular I dont know why).
Perhaps Serine was right. I'm unintentionally sending signals out to people. I didnt mean to do so, surely. I'm just extremely outspoken! Talking to the opposite sex doesnt mean flirting!
Hell, I dont know. Things are getting confusing. I dont need these attention from y'all. I appreciate the care and concern people are giving me. However, they have to understand a reply is an acknowledgement, not a green light to anything.
Well well well, What's God trying to do to me? I am harmless, really.
Penny for a thought, signing off.
Recently, things' been rather sneaky. I dont know, just felt so. In my history, anyone hardly came by to remind me about choosing a partner. Just this week, 2 guys whom I dated came along reminding me about it. I mean, why? Random or what, I'm not sure. But certainly I felt some awkwardness when they do so.
Honestly, relationship is minor. Anyone can live without it. I dont see any big deal about having to live in one. I always thought being single is best for me, perhaps. Then again, time after time, I meet more and more people (guys in particular I dont know why).
Perhaps Serine was right. I'm unintentionally sending signals out to people. I didnt mean to do so, surely. I'm just extremely outspoken! Talking to the opposite sex doesnt mean flirting!
Hell, I dont know. Things are getting confusing. I dont need these attention from y'all. I appreciate the care and concern people are giving me. However, they have to understand a reply is an acknowledgement, not a green light to anything.
Well well well, What's God trying to do to me? I am harmless, really.
Penny for a thought, signing off.
Friday, May 14
Monday, May 10
Well, its been awhile since I updated. I dont usually do so unless I have unspoken emotions or thoughts. As always. Recently, a lot have happened. Good or bad, I dont know. However, eventually it left me empty. Perhaps falling in love is just not my thing anymore. Perhaps, I dont even need them. Time and time again, I fall and hurt myself. I ask myself if it is all worthwhile, but I was never able to answer.
How about feeling like a replacement? How about living a beautiful lie? How about giving your all for something that will never turn out positive? Have you actually thought of it? Have you actually think about the consequences?
I guess not.
How about feeling like a replacement? How about living a beautiful lie? How about giving your all for something that will never turn out positive? Have you actually thought of it? Have you actually think about the consequences?
I guess not.
Sunday, March 7
Apparently it feels like I just came home from a short getaway. Great afterall. With a past history of being only drunk once, I updated it with another. Having said that, I was no Jackass. Other than crying for help during the "circle of death"game, I slept soundly after few glasses of I-got-no-idea. Not sure if it was a good idea for bringing 151 to Lincoln's chalet. It killed practically all of us on his 2nd night. Everyone involved in the game was down, including me. However, I am sure everyone had fun. On a side note, zillion thanks to Jinxing who have been taking care of me thru'out. Sitting by my side like a nanny. I know, for sure, if it wasn't her, I will still be well taken care of.
Unfortunately, I'm back in reality. No idea what's in for 2 weeks of HOTS but I know for sure its a fucking waste of time having to go school daily for just 1.5 hours. WHAT THE FUCK. I know i'm not a quitter but this time I really feel like quitting.
Thats all to update, thats all I swear. Nothing else. I choose to keep it this short. Bye.
Unfortunately, I'm back in reality. No idea what's in for 2 weeks of HOTS but I know for sure its a fucking waste of time having to go school daily for just 1.5 hours. WHAT THE FUCK. I know i'm not a quitter but this time I really feel like quitting.
Thats all to update, thats all I swear. Nothing else. I choose to keep it this short. Bye.
Tuesday, February 23
Initially full of motivation, determination and aspiration. To date, I suffer from deficiency of all to keep myself going. To work hard and achieve you completely, or to give and do something which worth better. Definitely a question. I'm just a little too weak, and you're just not that into me.
Guess what, It wont take long.
Guess what, It wont take long.
Sunday, February 7
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